Claire Wineland inspiration

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Viktor Frankl quotes

Following up on my last post, here are some quotes of Viktor Frankl, there are some real gems in here…

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Meaning and purpose

I’ve been doing a lot more thinking on meaning and purpose the last few days. I brought it up with my counsellor today to see if he had any insights and he mentioned Victor Frankl. I haven’t had chance to go into much detail yet but I did find this summary on you tube which makes me think it’s worth looking into it further.

There are a lot of books and I’m not sure where to start, any tips would be appreciated!

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What am I here for?

I found it both humbling and terrifying to lose all the things that had previously given my life meaning and purpose.

For me this came through illness but many people might experience something similar for a whole range of reasons.

It’s a scary place to be – lost, confused, disoriented, not knowing who I am or what I’m here for.

Everything I took for granted has gone. Now I’m trying to pick up the few pieces that are left, rebuild my life and rekindle a sense of self.

But how?

I’m not sure.

How do I work out what my purpose is when most of my day is about basic self care?

How do I find meaning when I barely have the energy to get out of bed?

How do I become part of a greater cause when my world is so small; limited to a house, a garden and the few streets within walking distance?

It feels selfish to be spending so much time on myself when I’ve always felt life was more about contributing to society and making the world a better place.

This is where my life is right now, but I don’t like it.

I struggle to know what my role is, what my part is in the bigger picture.

I feel small and insignificant. Maybe this is closer to the truth than I like to believe.

I used to feel part of something bigger than myself, which gave me worth and a sense of purpose.

Now everything is laid bare and it’s very uncomfortable.

Trying to balance out a sense of purpose with very limited resources is a daily challenge.

Some days I manage it better than others.

Yesterday I decided a good purpose would be to reach the highest level of health and wellbeing I can manage.

We’ll see how it goes…

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Resilience tune #16

I’ve been listening to this song a lot this week, it sums things up nicely, another one to add to the resilience play list

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The race

This is how I imagine myself; very slowly running a race (more like a plodding walk, let’s be honest) while everybody else has completed the race and is busy celebrating, drinking champagne and jeering at me from the top box.

I feel left behind, and I don’t like it.

Perhaps you can relate. Or perhaps you’ve got things figured out a lot more than I have.

Here is the trap: I assume everyone else is winning at life because they have the things I want.

But the more I talk to people, even the ones who have the things I want so badly, the more I realise they don’t feel so much like winners.

I assumed we were in the same race, but to them it’s a different race altogether. And they often feel left behind too.

The more I think about this, the more I realise there is no race.

So why do I put myself in one?

Or perhaps there is a race but we’re all running our own individual one, with our own goals and obstacles.

If the race is my own and I’m the only one in it, I can’t win or lose. I can only keep going forwards, at whatever pace I can manage right now.

It’s liberating to let myself off the hook occasionally. After all, if comparison is the thief of joy, why do I let it rule my life?

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Insomnia

I need some advice on coping with insomnia.

I’m averaging about 2 hours a night at the moment (my usual is about 10 hours a night).

It’s turning me into a crazy wreck.

I need something to change but I don’t know what. I’ve tried everything I can think of and am looking for new ideas.

So..

  • Have you experienced insomnia before?
  • Are you going through it at the moment?
  • Any tips on how to survive it??

Thanks in advance, people of the internet.

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